Lately everything has become a battle. This is probably completely normal for a 1-year old, but that doesn't make it any easier. Here are a few examples of what our days are like lately.
Ryan often wants to be picked up, but the minute I do that he squeals and wiggles out of my arms. Once I put him down he bursts into tears because he wants to be held.
Ryan still doesn't nap. Or sleep well at night. This results in no break or shower time for me. This results in a cranky stinky mommy who walks around feeling like a zombie.
Every diaper change is a full on battle. Ryan kicks and rolls over and screams until he turns red. Many times I have to pin him down with one arm or sit on him on the floor.
Ryan is not capable of playing by himself. He screams anytime I put him into his playpen.
When I do get a break from Ryan I often want to lock myself in another room and not come out for a very long time.
So I realize most of those examples are completely and totally normal. I understand that being a Mom means having to deal with tantrums and lack of sleep.
But if I'm being 100% honest, I sometimes feel like I'm not enjoying motherhood enough. I hear other moms talk about how happy they are and how much they are enjoying being a mommy, and how sweet their kids are. When I hear this I think 1 of 2 things. Either A) They are lying. Or B) Their child is easier than mine. Maybe I tell myself this in order to feel better. Like "Oh, well no wonder they love motherhood so much....their child SLEEPS!!" But then I second guess myself and wonder if my feelings are normal or if maybe I'm not that great of a Mom because I don't love it like I thought I would.
I think this was the most honest post I've ever written. I'm not looking for sympathy or anything like that. I guess I just really want to know if what I'm feeling is normal. Please be honest.